Sept 2| The Ministry of Showing Up Badly: How God Uses Your Imperfect Service
Feeling too broken to serve God? Discover why your weaknesses might be exactly what He wants to use.
Have you ever stood at the edge of a ministry opportunity, convinced you're the wrong person for the job? Maybe you've watched others serve with confidence while you struggle with the voice in your head saying, "You're not qualified enough, spiritual enough, or put-together enough to make a real difference."
If this resonates with you, you're in good company. Some of the most powerful servants in biblical history felt exactly the same way.
What if I told you that your biggest insecurity might actually be your ministry qualification? What if the thing you're most embarrassed about is exactly what God wants to use? This is the heart of what I call "the ministry of showing up badly" – and it might revolutionize how you think about serving God.
The Backwards Kingdom: Why God Chooses the Imperfect
We live in a culture obsessed with competence. From our LinkedIn profiles to our Instagram feeds, we're constantly trying to present the best version of ourselves. We've carried this mentality into our faith, believing we need to have our act together before we can serve God.
But God's kingdom operates on completely different principles. Throughout scripture, we see a consistent pattern: God doesn't call the equipped. He equips the called. And more often than not, He chooses people who feel utterly unqualified for the task at hand.
This isn't an accident or a divine oversight. It's a deliberate strategy that reveals something profound about God's character and His methods.
Moses: When Your Weakness Feels Like Disqualification
Let's start with one of the most dramatic examples in scripture. Picture this scene: Moses, a fugitive shepherd tending his father-in-law's flocks, encounters a burning bush that doesn't burn up. From this supernatural phenomenon, the voice of God calls Moses to return to Egypt and demand that Pharaoh release two million Hebrew slaves.
Moses' response reveals the heart of human insecurity: "Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue" (Exodus 4:10).
The Hebrew word Moses uses here is "kabad" – literally meaning "heavy." His tongue felt heavy, clunky, inadequate for the task. Whether Moses had a speech impediment, suffered from social anxiety, or simply felt tongue-tied around authority figures, his argument was clear: "God, I'm the wrong guy. I show up badly at the one thing this job requires."
Here's what's fascinating about God's response. He doesn't heal Moses' speech impediment. He doesn't wave His hand and suddenly transform Moses into the ancient world's most charismatic public speaker. Instead, God says essentially, "Fine. Take Aaron. He'll be your mouthpiece. But Moses – you're still going."
God's response to Moses reveals a crucial truth: Your weakness doesn't disqualify you from His purposes. It becomes part of them.
The Hidden Strategy Behind Imperfect Service
When Moses showed up imperfectly, stuttering his way through confrontations with the most powerful ruler in the ancient world, something important happened. Everyone knew this wasn't Moses' natural charisma saving the day. This wasn't human eloquence or political savvy. This was clearly God at work.
Moses thought his speech problem was a bug in the system. God saw it as a feature.
This pattern repeats throughout scripture because it serves multiple purposes:
It keeps us dependent on God rather than our own abilities. When we serve in our strength, we can easily take credit for the results. When we serve in our weakness, it's obvious that any success comes from God's power, not our competence.
It makes our service more relatable to others. Perfect people are intimidating. Struggling people who show up anyway are inspiring. When others see us serving despite our obvious imperfections, it gives them permission to do the same.
It demonstrates that God's power is available to everyone. If God only used the naturally gifted, the polished, and the perfectly prepared, most of us would be permanently disqualified. But when God uses broken people, it proves His power is available to all of us.
Peter: When Your Failure Defines You
Fast forward 1,500 years to another powerful example. Peter, the disciple who couldn't keep his mouth shut to save his life, faces his darkest moment. In Jesus' hour of greatest need, Peter – who had sworn he would die before abandoning his Lord – denies knowing Jesus. Not once, but three times. "I don't know the man."
If Moses felt disqualified by his weak speech, imagine how Peter felt about his weak character. This wasn't a minor social gaffe or a momentary lapse in judgment. This was moral failure at the most crucial moment possible.
But look what Jesus does after His resurrection. He doesn't sideline Peter. He doesn't say, "Well, you blew it. Bench time for you." Instead, in one of the most beautiful restoration scenes in scripture, Jesus asks Peter three times, "Do you love me?" And three times, He gives Peter a job: "Feed my sheep" (John 21:15-17).
Jesus is essentially saying, "Peter, I'm not asking you to be perfect. I'm asking you to show up."
The Aha Moment: Imperfect Service is Still Service
Here's the revelation that changes everything: The ministry of showing up badly is still ministry.
Your fumbled prayers still reach God's ears. Your awkward attempts at encouragement still bring comfort to hurting hearts. Your messy service still honors Him and advances His kingdom.
When we serve in our weakness, we're actually being more authentic than when we try to serve in our strength. Our weakness forces us to depend on God instead of our own competence, and that dependence creates space for His power to work.
Think about the disciples Jesus chose. Peter was impulsive and prone to putting his foot in his mouth. Thomas doubted everything and demanded proof. James and John were ambitious ladder-climbers who jockeyed for position in the kingdom. Matthew was a tax collector – a profession that made him a traitor to his own people.
Jesus didn't get better disciples. He made better disciples out of the flawed ones He had.
Modern Applications: How to Show Up Badly Well
So what does this look like in practical terms? How do we embrace the ministry of showing up badly in our daily lives?
Start with availability, not ability. Stop waiting until you feel qualified. God is looking for willing hearts, not perfect résumés. If you wait until you're ready, you'll never start.
Embrace your authentic struggles. Instead of hiding your weaknesses, consider how God might want to use them. Your battle with anxiety might help you comfort others who struggle. Your financial difficulties might make you more compassionate toward those in need. Your parenting failures might help you relate to other imperfect parents.
Serve in small ways. You don't need to start a nonprofit or plant a church to practice the ministry of showing up badly. Offer to pray for someone, even if your prayers feel clunky. Send an encouraging text, even if you don't have the perfect words. Volunteer at your church, even if you feel underqualified.
Let go of perfectionist paralysis. Perfectionism isn't a high standard – it's often an excuse for inaction. The enemy would rather keep you on the sidelines pursuing an impossible standard than have you serving imperfectly in the game.
The Biblical Hall of Fame of Imperfect Servants
Scripture is filled with examples of people who showed up badly and were used powerfully by God:
David wrote half the Psalms with blood on his hands from his moral failures
Paul planted churches across the Roman Empire while battling what he called his "thorn in the flesh" – some kind of physical weakness or limitation
Gideon led Israel to military victory despite being afraid and hiding in a winepress
Jeremiah prophesied to nations while struggling with depression and self-doubt
John the Baptist prepared the way for Jesus while living in the wilderness eating locusts and honey
None of them waited until they were qualified. They just showed up badly and let God handle the rest.
Overcoming the Voices of Disqualification
The biggest barrier to the ministry of showing up badly isn't external circumstances – it's the voices in our heads that tell us we're not enough. These voices come from several sources:
Past failures: "Remember when you tried to help before and made things worse?" The enemy loves to use our past mistakes to disqualify us from future service. But failure isn't final – it's educational.
Comparison with others: "Look how gifted she is. You could never do what she does." Comparison is the thief of joy and the murderer of ministry. God isn't looking for you to be someone else – He's looking for you to be you.
Perfectionist expectations: "If you can't do it perfectly, don't do it at all." This is a lie designed to keep you paralyzed. Done is better than perfect, and imperfect service is better than no service at all.
False humility: "I'm just being humble by not serving." Sometimes what we call humility is actually pride in disguise – the pride of perfectionism that refuses to risk looking foolish.
The Ripple Effects of Imperfect Service
When you embrace the ministry of showing up badly, something beautiful happens. Your willingness to serve despite your imperfections gives others permission to do the same. You break the cycle of perfectionist paralysis that keeps so many believers on the sidelines.
Your imperfect service becomes a testimony to God's grace. People see that God doesn't require perfection – He requires availability. This creates a culture where others feel safe to step out of their comfort zones and serve despite their own insecurities.
A Personal Challenge: Your Next Imperfect Step
Here's my challenge for you this week: Stop waiting for permission. Stop waiting until you feel ready. Find one way – just one – to serve someone this week, even if you're afraid you'll do it imperfectly.
Maybe it's:
Offering to pray for a coworker who's going through a difficult time
Volunteering for a ministry at your church that intimidates you
Reaching out to encourage someone, even if you don't have all the right words
Sharing your faith with a friend, even though you don't have all the answers
Helping a neighbor, even if you're not sure you're the best person for the job
Remember, the goal isn't to impress anyone with your competence. The goal is to show up with your availability and let God handle the rest.
The Ultimate Truth: God's Power in Human Weakness
The apostle Paul understood this principle deeply. When he struggled with his own "thorn in the flesh," he begged God to remove it. But God's response was profound: "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" (2 Corinthians 12:9).
Paul's conclusion? "Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
This is the heart of the ministry of showing up badly. It's not about celebrating incompetence or embracing mediocrity. It's about recognizing that God's power is most clearly displayed when human weakness provides the backdrop.
Your weaknesses aren't obstacles to overcome before you can serve – they're the very canvas on which God wants to paint His masterpiece.
The Ministry That Changes Everything
The ministry of showing up badly isn't just about overcoming personal insecurities – though it does that. It's not just about finding the courage to serve – though it does that too. It's about participating in a kingdom that operates on completely different principles than the world around us.
In God's kingdom, the last are first, the weak are strong, and the broken are beautiful. In God's kingdom, showing up badly is infinitely better than not showing up at all.
So stop waiting for the perfect moment, the perfect skills, or the perfect opportunity. Your imperfect service is needed today. Your fumbling attempts at love and grace are exactly what someone needs to experience God's heart.
The ministry of showing up badly is still ministry. And sometimes, it's the most powerful ministry of all.
Because when God uses our mess, everyone knows it's not about us – it's all about Him. And that's exactly the way He likes it.
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